I’m growing up

Too fast.Too soon.Step back.Move forward.

XOXO

Ignorance is so cool

Dun mind the statement above. Its just that being ignore is just fucking retarded. I mean what I have done to you that you have to ignore me and not even had the balls to talk to me. A few words and that’s it!!! I mean I’m really sorry that I broke your heart but have you ever thought about my feelings at all. I still really value our friendship to the core but you’re treating it as it meant nothing and being stubborn as mule and not talked about!!! why can’t you just freaking just say wants on your mind and we can deal with it together. What’s the point of not saying anything and hiding behind the shadows all your life. Dun you want to fight for something that really mean something to you. I really believe that there is more than words for you to express but somehow you just cant and its freaking annoying!!! I have ears that it is always waiting to what you have to say. Even if I’m mean and sarcastic at times but its just the way I express my feelings for. I never taught you were such a quitter. I really want us to overcome this and be as we use too. Like I said some part of me still really do love you and the reason I gave up because I feel tired and I couldn’t wait anymore. And when I begin to move on, here you come along and tell what you feel. How an I suppose to react. This just makes things even more complicated and I hate myself for it!!!!

Someone murder me now before I jump off a building

Admiring from a distance

Just finish with my favorite paper of all time and I’m satisfied to the core by just seeing him smile.

The awesomeness of shlong aura can bring onto me. :-)

First, I was extremely hype up that I have no idea what I was freaking talking the whole time and giggle like a jackass.

Second, came down with a fewer of all time of the week when exams are going on.

Thirdly, the time when I so excited to go swimming with baby, the time of the month hit me again and it so fucked up.

No one can bit that. (Perasan case)

My most awesome lecturer in the world. Going to miss him for fucks.

Moment that makes me look normal

I’m officially a retard. Why you ask??? Let see. Its just hours away from IB paper and I am blogging. How freaking awesome is that.

Reason for blogging:

• Way to bored.
• Need some typing from writing which is making my fingers hurt.
• I’m missing you
• I’m feel unhealthy
• I want to wear a bikini now and go swimming
• I can't wait to see you
• I’m missing the taste of someone else. The irony of that.
• Lastly, I’m freaking horny and I need to let it out.

With this is my pile of rubbish that came out.

How much I miss them!!!!

Little things

This is so random because I like seriously thought about this when I was literally in the shower. Why do I like come out with this kind of shit anyway!!!!!

1.  Have a major blast out party to keep memorable.

2. Go swimming in the middle of the night.

3. Walk into shops and choose tons and try on but don’t buy to piss off people.

4. Go out with you know who????? lolx

5. Have another random make out session.

6. Be upside down again.

7. Go to the beach.

8. Slumber party with the babies in jamiss….and gossip(girls best friend)

9. Paint ball fight

10. Run around in underwear with you in my house when no one is home….

XOXO

This is for you .

Ps: Only you know what does this mean……..

As your fingers touch my skin,
And as my world starts to spin,
You whisper what I want to hear,
And it make your feelings very clear.

You softly touch my hair,
And we both become aware,
Soon we’ll be more close,
And find love at it’s most.

Your tongue wrestles with mine,
Our fingers lock and intertwine,
You recline, and I climb on top
I never want this fervor to stop .

I caress your face and lips,
As your hands seize my hips.
Skin against skin, unfathomable heat.
Every part of you tastes so sweet.

You give me pleasure and I moan,
For the intensity has grown,
Is this all possible, or even real,
That something’s got this much appeal?

I find your neck biting erotic,
As we move into things chaotic,
I don’t mind; it all makes sense,
Because my love for you is immense.

As our breathing becomes unsteady,
I ask you if we are ready,
You say yes, but it’s up to me,
And I wholeheartedly agree.

I never want you to let go,
As things get more fast and slow,
I want you to hold me tight,
And take me as your lover tonight.

I’ll remember our peak,
That left us breathless and weak.
I’ll remember our passion and sweat,
For this won’t be a night I forget.

*Addiction that is hard to let got for thou being so wonderful.

Obscure with what I am.

Finally you realize that everything is going to be fine and no stress free, it take a toll on you. But it has is good and bad. Mix feelings about everything and I don't have any idea what to do.

Help please………